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Karen An-hwei Lee: “The Literal Heart – Kim-An Lieberman’s In Orbit”

inorbitfrontcoverwebIn Orbit
Kim-An Lieberman
Blue Begonia Press 2014



Yes, this is a brave and luminous volume about living with – then dying – from cancer.  In Orbit does not, however, follow an orthodox trajectory – the poems resist the labels of cancer patient or invalid.  With raw beauty, In Orbit breathes more life than illness into its lines:  We read poems titled, “Chemotherapy Teaching Sheet” (51), “Oncology Primer” (44), and “Cardiac Scan with Backlit Ceiling Mural” (49), yet encounter Seattle blossoming “in a thousand different languages, flowering” (29).

The Immigrant Gardens

On the slopes of First Hill, on the banks of the freeway,
at the corner of Maynard and Main,
the immigrant gardens are blooming.
Daikon and bitter melon, shiso and snow pea,
bamboo shoots rising through layers of clay.
In the static buzz of the cicada streetlamps,
under the tarp of the storm-furrowed sky,
bok choy bursts yellow, peppers clatter down the vine.
. . .
Trace the city’s glass ridges from your split-board bench,
watch the cars on I-5 burn a river of light.
All around you, brambles and grasses and roots
in a thousand different languages, flowering. (29)

Kim-An Lieberman received a diagnosis of late-stage gastric cancer in her late thirties. Loving wife and mother of three, Lieberman’s journey on earth suddenly launched into orbit: “I have been injected with a vial / of my own blood, taken and tagged / with some glowing ore, to show on screen / the bare pathways of my literal heart” (49).  The start of the collection weaves her Vietnamese heritage, using a double-helix as a figure of inheritance, generational stories, and detailed lyric narrative, while the final poems of her collection allude to terminal illness while her spirit as a weaver of imagery persists in truth-telling, “sharper and straighter than flame” (19). Those of us who fondly remember her love of the environment and of living creatures, who rejoice with the exuberance of her dear children (“Returning to the Children after a Week Away,”), will recognize the endearing spirit of these poems.  New readers of Lieberman’s work will find in these pages much to admire in their blazing honesty and beautiful resilience.

In the first third of the collection, the precise syllables and rich imagery of the heritage poems hold dear the objects and faces of her family: A great-great-grandmother of “nightshade hair” (13), a great-aunt who owned only one pencil, “precious burden of the only girl / given school while others ran goods to Dong Xuan market” (18), a Vietnamese lacquer bowl with “a gloss so deep / that even cupped here, palm to palm, / you lose me where I look” (23), and even a wryly tender “Lunch Date with My Younger Self,” compelled to tell the story begun in the earlier pages of the collection:

Lunch Date with My Younger Self

I tell this story because it is mine, secondhand,
and because one more step means I never was.
Maybe it is also yours – a cousin, a great-uncle,
your own clouded memory, your own near miss,
or you were the target, or you pulled the pin. (14)

In the last two-thirds of the collection, Lieberman challenges us to look beyond the clinical lexicon of living with DHGC (diffuse hereditary gastric cancer), a hereditary condition, to its individual reality.  Lieberman writes of an uncertain yet perpetual present – ceaseless time flowing in in rooms without clocks, or calendars tossed away at the cut-and-dry advice of professionals: “Let me be clear.  Cancer is no one’s poetic dreamscape. / . . . We are told to get our affairs in order / and to stop buying calendars” (56).

Treatment

The journey asks my flesh for a map.
At each border-crossing, they scar me
with emblems and flags.

In war, I am no soldier.  Just battleground,
blood-soaked soil underfoot.
Cities exploding, cell against cell.

As the season advances, I darken,
pocked with black spores,
a loaf left to rot in summer heat. (48)

Although burned and broken in the flesh – compared to a battlefield — her spirit is fierce, and “Ars Poetica” affirms the power of life as vision through imaginative will in the poem: “This actually is my life flashing before your eyes” (56).

 Ars Poetica

…I reserve the right
to write.  And I will write truth, a last-ditch ridiculous truth
about gardens and gods, about my grandfather in outer space
and my son learning to swim, about soul-swaps and time-trips,
about cathedrals and card sharks and skinny refugee kids,
about metaphysical and physical and the random colors between
until I’m cornered by the four walls of my own reckless idea
and gasping for logic, unmoored by fact, aesthetically exposed,
because this actually is my life flashing before your eyes,
because poetry has its limits but then again so does cancer,
because I need any moment except today splattered on the page. (56)

These poems moved me sadly and profoundly – from memories, over a decade ago, of a radiant Kim-An Lieberman in our years at Berkeley, a time we visited the farmer’s market and Kim-An asked the marmalade woman if she wanted Meyer lemons, or a box of dark chocolates Kim-An once brought me, her avid vegetarianism, her gorgeous collection of scarves, her passion for social issues, especially animal rights, gender equity, and environmentalism — and loved ones who are cancer survivors or who did not live, and friends whose lives were turned upside-down by a telephone call about a pathology lab result.  Almost none were in their thirties, and only one was Kim-An.  This is to say, reading this collection hurts.  It is a bittersweet vial of tears as Kim-An sends a blessing of light into the future – namely, the lives of her beloved children.

More Moon

Someday she will know light from light —
for now, let her world shimmer.
I lull her to sleep, and then myself,
whispering moon, moon:

as I wane to nothing, you learn to be

how lush-spun the velvet on valley and field

trail of gems, brightly tipped and dreaming (64)

My immense gratitude is due to Kim-An Lieberman for her fortitude, her inspiration, her intelligence made even more brilliant by a loving heart, her lyric poems of unbounded existence with a measured eye: “My cells and not my cells. / My heart itself another sort of cell” (49). Even while her life sailed into orbit — a place those of us left behind have yet to see — she made this planet, a world of beauty and savagery, a better place for all.

Why This Poem Is Not about Cancer

…I think of how the ocean, long before
sextant or compass, granted stars to steer
double-hulled voyagers safely ashore,
and how the stars themselves,

winking archipelagoes on evening’s swell,
brought children skipping from riverbanks
to tug at their elders’ sleeves for a story,
a reason to be so dazzled,

and how the story was never about photons,
never hydrogen gasses or polarized dust,
but rather walled palaces and faithful sons,
fierce hunters and wounded bears,

rather the princess and the buffalo-boy
forbidden to love, soaking monsoon soil
and impassable chasms of milk-woven light
in the sorrow of their parting. (63)

Kim-An Lieberman (1974-2013) was a writer of Vietnamese and Jewish American descent, born in Rhode Island and raised in the Pacific Northwest. She studied at the University of Washington before earning a Ph.D. in English from the University of California, Berkeley.  Her poems have appeared in ZYZZYVA, Threepenny Review, Poetry Northwest, and Lantern Review.  Of her second collection, Ken Chen, Executive Director of the Asian American Writers’ Workshop, writes: “These final poems are wild, stirring, devastating.  You should read them if you want someone to wake up your heart.”

Karen An-hwei Lee is the author of Phyla of Joy (Tupelo 2012), Ardor (Tupelo 2008) and In Medias Res (Sarabande 2004), winner of the Norma Farber First Book Award.  Lee also wrote two chapbooks, God’s One Hundred Promises (Swan Scythe 2002) and What the Sea Earns for a Living (Quaci Press 2014). Her book of literary criticism, Anglophone Literatures in the Asian Diaspora: Literary Transnationalism and Translingual Migrations (Cambria, 2013), was selected for the Cambria Sinophone World Series. She earned an M.F.A. from Brown University and Ph.D. in English from the University of California, Berkeley. The recipient of a National Endowment for the Arts Grant, she serves as Full Professor of English and Chair at a small liberal arts college in greater Los Angeles, where she is also a novice harpist. Lee is a member of the National Book Critics Circle.