Erasure of Girlhood
I walk behind my& he tells me it’s like our first&fear swell
in mychest like a wet storm thatforecaster would ever wishpredict
tracks left oilafterhe put the fire out & nowin search
& he asks medown & I whinefar from the river
into Januarycold & coyotes out here &down &
down & mynumbs from the cold &my face &bury my teeth
without fleeing &theseared myrose in my
& the sap from the treeinto the air & the stink of it smeared my
& the river came backI could always hold the longest underwater
I liemy pantspulledtongue
painhipsbilethroat
cut down bled intoa flood of saltmy breath whine
now lovers always stare intokiss my breath, I
neverto the mattress
—
Sarah María Medina is a poet and a fiction/creative non-fiction writer from the American Northwest. Her writing has been published in Vol. 1 Brooklyn, Midnight Breakfast, PANK, Split This Rock, Raspa Literary Journal, and elsewhere. She is an ARTIST UP Grant LAB recipient for her poetry manuscript in progress “Ochun’s Daughter.” She is also the poetry editor at Winter Tangerine. She is at work on several projects. Find her at sarahmariamedina.com & @LaHurakan.